Audacity of a Stranger

It was recently brought to my attention That I'm not as messed up as I should be. I'd say that I'm sorry, but I'm not. I don't have time nor do I see the point of laying down.

After a long day my mother came home from a conference on bullying. She spoke to an expert and told him of my experience in Highschool when I was 16. He informed her, without ever meeting me or knowing anything about me that even if I appear fine and am functioning as a normal adult (whatever a normal adult is!) That one day when I'm 30 washing the dishes everything that happened when I was 16 will just hit me. I'll breakdown and be unable to leave my home and just be a complete mess. I guess when I'm 30 I can eat out and avoid doing Dishes for an entire year.

Can you believe the audacity of that man?

Shit Happens. I could easily list everything I have gone through, and how by default the bullying and abuse of when I was 16 is nothing in comparision. Hell It would be understandble if I was a drunk. But why? Someone explain Why I should lay down and let life beat me?

The truth of the matter is life is going to test you, things arent always going to be happy and sunny. Storms come, but its your attitude towards what happens to you and how you react that shapes and defines you. I know who I am, how I relate to the world I live in and the people around me. I may have suffered abuse at diffrent points in my life, but I'm strong. I know who I am, I know my strengths and weaknesses. Everything I have gone through has made me stronger and it has made me compasionate. I can be as cold as ice, I can survive and be a strength to others. Or I can be warm and understanding, and comfort, use my history to relate and try to help others suffer less. I am able to see the big picture, to place things in perspective.

I would like to make a suggestion that Everyone watch the movie "The Changeling." Christine Collins is a hero. The movie has fact in it, based on truth. From that you can see my point. This lady went through hell. As if being a single mom wasnt enough of a trial her son was kidnapped and murdered. While he was missing through coruption she was given a diffrent child and told he was hers. She was put in a hospital for the insane. What this lady endured is incredible. But my question is why? Why did she have to go through all that she did? Why did things have to keep getting worse? She didnt back down, she fought. She revealed crouption and helped save other women also wrongly placed in a hospital.She was a comfort to other families who lost children. She is by far a strong and incredible lady. What happened sucked.

I'm not Christine Collins and the trials Ive been through, although upsetting to me arent a big deal. Life is like learning to walk..your going to trip, your going to fall, sometimes people might push you...you can stay down and give up, pity yourself and ask why me, or you can learn to stand back up and keep walking, sometimes you may get tired, not know where to walk,..but you keep on going, you focus, you learn. Thats what life is about, learning.

but again the audacity of that stranger to say that I cant handle what happened to me.

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One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.For each scene he noticed two sets offootprints in the sand: one belongingto him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the verylowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and hequestioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to followyou, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the mosttroublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why whenI needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that I carried you."

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